159 -161 Getting to know You


La Paz

 Dec 13-15

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SunRise over Juncalito Beach

We left Juncalito at 6am knowing we had a long drive ahead.  It was an uneventful trip, just hot and exhausting.  We were stopped at only one check point where we were welcomed with the usual enthusiastic questions about the dogs and where I was going.

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Reflection of mountains on shore

We arrived in La Paz early evening and I decided to celebrate my birthday by going to bed early. I guess I’m getting old! We’re staying at the only campground in or around La Paz but it’s a ways out-of-town and lacks internet. There’s an internet Café with marginal reception down the street so I’ll do some work there but inevitably I’ll remain behind in my blog posts. Nonetheless this is a good opportunity to do laundry, grocery shop and set up a travel strategy. I’m still planning to visit a friend of a friend in Barrilles, a coastal town about 60 miles south of La Paz, and will consider traveling to Santo Tomas a little art community on the pacific coast for its music festival. I find it hard to make these decisions because on one hand I feel like time is running out and I have over a dozen countries to explore but on the other hand there’s easily a years worth of exploring still to be done in Baja.

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Girls making themselves at home

It always takes longer than I expect to adjust to new areas especially if it’s a town or city and after I acclimate and set up house I find it hard to think about breaking down camp and moving on. OLYMPUS DIGITAL CAMERASometimes, even before I pull into a campground I start dreading the ritual of breaking camp the next morning. I was certainly spoiled by the last week of ‘staying put.’ Luckily, there are enough chores to do here in La Paz that I can relax into the idea of staying a few days.


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Statue in La Paz


 

It’s phenomenal how the unknown dictates our actions and emotions. I’ve had to struggle to keep my fears in check since the conception of this trip.   I battle fear, worry and silly insecurities almost everyday. I experience it particularly when I’m faced with moving forward to a new location or a new situation but even when faced with some familiar tasks. Each time my plan changes and I have to project my next move I have to battle a twist in my gut and a dark voice that says, “Danger!” Most of the time I can quickly put these thoughts to rest and move forward but sometimes it paralyzes me for a while.

My introduction to La Paz meets me with chaos. Everything seemed to rush at me too quickly. As I drive into town and try to locate my next turn I pass by streets faster than my brain can calculate. The throng of people and dogs make my head spin. The vehicles flash by me from all directions. Everything is a threat to me. Will a dog run out in front of the truck? Will I become stuck down a small street where I cant turn around? Will someone get angry with me for beings so hesitant and slow? A friendly voice resonates in my ears. Help is here and some of the worry melts away. Three days pass and with each experience, good and bad, my trust in my environment gels. I recognize the street I just walked by, “That store is now open, hummm… it was closed yesterday.” I’m feeling the beat of this city and it’s becoming mine. It’s now been 4 days and I’m packing to leave La Paz. I’ve walked many of the streets, I’ve been barked at by dogs locked behind fences and those roaming the streets, I’ve bought things from vendors and practiced my Spanish. I am leaving this place not as a stranger but as an acquaintance. It’s no longer scary to me. I don’t have to roll up every window in fear of theft. Is it here?   Yes, but it’s not exploding out of every street corner.   I can’t believe how empty the streets are. The dogs seem quieter today, and the traffic is low. Is it a holiday?   No, I’ve adjusted to the rhythm and I recognize the flow. As I drive down the last street I realize that I wasted a lot of energy worrying about the unknown. What can I do to make this easier? I think the answer is to make the world my neighborhood and every street an extension of what I know.


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I’ve made my decision about where to go next. I’ll visit the friend (of a friend) in Barrilles and head back to La Paz to catch the ferry to the main land in a week.   So for the next couple days my time will be spent doing chores, getting the import certificate for the truck and camper and last but not least buying passage on the ferry.

8 thoughts on “159 -161 Getting to know You

  1. WOW..IS ALL I CAN SAY..YOU ARE SO BRAVE..AND INTUITIVE..AND SEEM TO KNOW YOURSELF SO WELL….THANK YOU VIKKI FOR SHARING AS I DEAL WITH MANY OF THE SME FEARS…AND ANXIETIES..AND I TOO TRY TO KEEP MOVING ON…..

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    • Susan you too are brave. I know the trials that you’ve been through and you’re a tough cookie. I wanted to share my vulnerable side and say that it’s ok to have to push through our ‘demons.’ Yes, Keep moving on!

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  2. Marilyn says:

    Hi Vikki, I only just met you in Loreto and again on Juncalito Beach, but I find myself thinking of you every day wondering where you’re at now, how you’re getting along in your journey, and especially how the dogs are doing? They stole my heart and I love reading your posts, hearing about, and seeing, all of their antics play out, and answering your queries. You are such a brave soul, and I know being on the road in a foreign country is not easy, often I find myself in the same circumstances, worried about driving into someone’s yard, or going down the wrong way on a one way street. Sometimes there are things that you say that I feel you have pulled right from my psyche about my own journey and experiences, “I battle fear, worry and silly insecurities almost everyday. I experience it particularly when I’m faced with moving forward to a new location or a new situation but even when faced with some familiar tasks. Each time my plan changes and I have to project my next move I have to battle a twist in my gut and a dark voice that says, “Danger!” Most of the time I can quickly put these thoughts to rest and move forward but sometimes it paralyzes me for a while.” It is exactly that, “paralyzing” and I also feel that same twist in my gut when I’m heading into the unknown of a new location, and I wonder to myself, “Why did I decide to do this?” OR “What did you think would be fun about that?” I just a wanted you to know that I’m right there with you Baby, and I oh so feel your pain and excitement, your joy and fear, and also your sense of accomplishment at the end of each day. I thought I was tough and brave, but you’ve definitely got me beat!

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  3. schuldtfamily says:

    the circus in my head can drive me nuts sometimes ! your travels and experiences are a gift to so many, be gentle with yourself. love you

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